Wednesday, December 21, 2011

2011 Rocket City Marathon

Once again I had the priveledge of directing the Nike Fleet Feet Pace Teams for Rocket City Marathon and also running one the pace groups.  Last year provided a unique challenge as I paced the 3:40 group just six days after racing California International Marathon.  This year I had a few weeks to recover after the New York City Marathon, but was also tasked with pacing the 3:10 group (7:15 pace).



I find it rewarding personally to sacrifice my time and offer up my skills as a runner to help others realize their goals.  The temperatures where ideal, while I knew that the wind was going to be a challenge in the second half as the course turned back toward the finish.  As such, my plan was to be about a minute ahead of pace at the half way mark, which I felt would give the group the best chance to finish under the goal time.  Each mile I watched the pace and tried to coach the runners on what to expect with the course, fueling, tangents, etc.  Rolling through 13.1 miles we were right on at 1:34:08 as we ran south bound on Bailey Cove.  I was very happy to see that we still had a group of about 25 people running together.

As expected, the futher we ran, the small the group got as slowly runners fell off of pace.  I tried to let them know that based on experience that that the turn onto Bailey Cove would be directly into a headwind and that we needed to run single-file, stride for stride staying together and drafting.  I began to work a lot harder driving into the wind to stay even pace, but most of the runners fell behind.  By the time I made the turn through the neighborhood and approached the hill on Chicamauga Trail, none of my original group remained.

I had picked up several new runners that had gone out ahead of schedule and now slowed down.  I carried a few of them for several miles at a time and one even stayed with me step for step through to the finish! (48 year old Robby Callahan of Prattville, Alabama)

I slowed slightly through the hills (from miles 21-25) but still stayed on overall pace and proudly finished at 3:09:29, staying mostly even (1:34:08 / 1:35:21) in the first and second halves.

Robby did say to me toward the end "that this must be easy for you guys".  I laughed a little... running a marathon is never easy, not matter what the finishing time is when you have to run even pace, especially on a course that has some rolling hills and a headwind in the last 10 miles.  Yet on this day, that was my job and I gladly accepted the challenge!


MileSplitTotalAverage
17:14.470:07:140:07:14
27:10.380:14:250:07:12
37:10.000:21:350:07:12
47:06.300:28:410:07:10
57:13.820:35:550:07:11
67:13.170:43:080:07:11
77:06.760:50:150:07:11
87:12.970:57:280:07:11
97:12.351:04:400:07:11
107:08.431:11:490:07:11
117:10.601:18:590:07:11
127:08.731:26:080:07:11
137:08.371:33:160:07:10
147:10.301:40:270:07:10
157:08.981:47:360:07:10
167:08.921:54:450:07:10
177:13.062:01:580:07:10
187:11.742:09:090:07:11
197:12.952:16:220:07:11
207:15.852:23:380:07:11
217:20.412:30:590:07:11
227:21.692:38:200:07:12
237:22.002:45:420:07:12
247:24.582:53:070:07:13
257:33.453:00:400:07:14
267:16.453:07:570:07:14
26.21:33.523:09:300:07:14

As for the Nike Fleet Feet Pacers, I am glad to report that their average was being UNDER by 42 seconds with some staying under by as close as 5, 7, 9 and 15 seconds to their goal time. Jay Lloyd even went as far as running even first and second half splits of 1:47:05/1:47:05. While not many runners stayed with the pace group leaders after mile 15 (turn into the wind) the pacers stayed even through to the end. This was tough to "leave" the runners as they slowed, but other runners (ahead) were also counting on the pacers to come in right on pace. A couple pacers just missed their times but wasn't due to fitness, but to watch/GPS issues and we did not have any complaints that I heard in these areas.

I am very proud of this team as running even pace for 26.2 miles doesn't just happen on race day; it takes practice and months of training. Many of these pacers have already asked to be involved next year. I think they felt this personally rewarding to put others needs and goals above their own.

PacerPace GroupChip TimeDifference
Dewayne Satterfield3:053:04:2931 seconds under
Eric Charette3:103:09:2931 seconds under
David O'Keefe3:153:14:4515  seconds under
Brett Addington3:253:24:3525  seconds under
Eric Patterson3:303:29:0951  seconds under
Jay Lloyd3:353:33:571 minute 3  seconds under
Adam Swann3:403:39:3426 seconds under
David Rawlings3:453:44:537  seconds under
Katie Maehlmann3:553:55:5050 seconds over
Christy Scott4:003:57:352 minutes 25 seconds under
Tom Gale4:104:11:001 minute under
Bryan Campbell4:254:24:0159 seconds under
Linda Scavarda4:254:24:519  seconds under
David Coon4:404:39:555 seconds under
Shawn Smith4:404:40:077 seconds over
Suzanne Erickson4:554:54:0357 seconds under
Carrie Wilson4:554:54:0357 seconds under

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Major Dream


On October 3rd, 2005 I ran my first marathon; it was an utter and epic failure. On that sunny day in Milwaukee, I ran the first 16 miles in two hours. It took me two hours and 55 minutes to walk the next 10 miles. My debut marathon was a 4:55 and I was in tears.  Any thoughts of running a Boston Qualifying 3:10 were so far from reality that I wondered if I would ever run another marathon.



I did.

In the spring of 2006 I trained smarter, not harder, and ran the Cellcom Green Bay Marathon.  On a perfect weather day, I was able to run 3:18 and officially had caught that marathon bug.  Despite the throbbing pain in my legs, I started to wonder if I'd ever been good enough to run at Boston.  Dreaming even bigger, I knew that somewhere along the way I would like to run all three of the U.S. marathon majors; Chicago, Boston and New York.



So I wrote it down on my bucket list.

While I thought that since I was so close to qualifying for Boston that it would be easy, I failed on my next attempt.  In doing so, I managed to complete step one of my goal and finish the LaSalle Bank Chicago Marathon in 3:16 in October of 2006.



Then on my second attempt to qualify for Boston in South Carolina at the Myrtle Beach Marathon I failed again.  This time I was a kick away from making the mark, as I finished in 3:11:12 and missed the mark by 13 seconds.  I was more heart broken in coming so close than I was in my near five hour finish in Milwaukee. The dejected look on my face tells the story of how I was feeling.



Despite the continued failures, I tried again in May of 2007 at Cellcom Green Bay Marathon.  This proved to be my day and with my parents sitting in Lambeau field at mile 25 to cheer me on, I was able to run 3:07 and finally qualify for the Boston Marathon.  The second leg of my marathon majors dream was not set into motion.



I would go on to run Boston in April of 2008, finishing just under the time I needed to requalify for the following year, notching a 3:09.  Chicago.  Check.  Boston.  Check.  Now was it possible to break 3 hours in the marathon?



In December 2008 I laid it all out on the line and after logging numerous hundred mile weeks and training to the breaking point, I raced Rocket City Marathon to a 2:54.  I felt like I had finally arrived as a marathoner and wanted to take my game back to Boston for another shot.



Boston 2009 went much better as I was able to stick with Dink Taylor for the first 16 miles before the Newton Hills and after struggling through to Boston College, was able to hold on to run 2:56.  Two marathons in a row under three hours.



While getting into Chicago was a matter of registering early enough to run amongst 40,000 other people, it took qualifying to run on Patriot's Day in Massachusetts in 2008 and 2009.  To get into New York, I would either have to be lucky and gain entry through the lottery, or I would have to bypass the lottery with a fast marathon time.  That would mean running under 2:55 again and after struggling to a 2:58 at Rocket City in late 2009, I wondered if I could do it again.



So in June of 2010 I started training to run my fastest marathon ever.  I put together a brutal training plan and booked a flight to Sacramento, where I would test my skills at the ultra fast California International Marathon.  After hitting some very fast times in training, including a 1:15:32 half marathon, I felt like I was ready.  Then on race day in early December, everything came together and I was fortunate enough to run a 2:43:40 which would ensure my entry into New York.  The final step of my marathon dream was not one step closer to reality.



In February, I ran a miserable 2:48 at Mercedes Marathon which was part of left over fitness from Sacramento as I had not done any training since December as I was suffering from burn out.  Despite the 1:20 / 1:28 splits, it still was my second fastest marathon ever and 5th marathon in a row under three hours.



So with that finish in Birmingham, I decided it was time to run New York.  With my 2:43 and 2:48, I was able to bypass the lottery and was accepted.  Ten months later I would be in the Big Apple.

Training for New York started late in the summer and with the heat of Alabama, was not coming along very well.  I was able to pick it up in September, but felt like I was a month behind where I needed to be, given the race was in November and I was used to training for a marathon in December.  The race times were where they needed to be, as I was able to run several 5km races under 17 minutes and at a fitness check half marathon in Winchester, Tennessee, I hit 1:16 on a hilly course.  The only thing that I was lacking was quality long runs, having only gone over 20 miles once.  So I was in great half marathon shape, but combined with an ailing right knee, shooting pains in my left inner calf and a possible torn rotator cuff, I was worried how the race might go.

The race started out warm and with a tough climb on the Narrows Bridge.  I mostly held 6:10 pace for the first 10 miles, but was struggling on the rolling hills of Brooklyn.  I split the first half in 1:22 but but the base of the Queensboro Bridge, I was starting to drop off quickly.  The climb of that bridge over to Manhattan and the head wind seemed to break my spirit and I had slowed drastically.

The blessing of the day was at mile 16 when in the middle of the largest single day sporting event for number of spectators, with millions and millions of fans, I was able to spot Anne in the crowd.  I told her that it was not my day and she told me that quitting was not an option and encouraged me to hold on.  It was amazing that I was able to see her and it was the motivation that I needed to finish.

So trying to keep it under 2:55, I knew that I had to run around seven-minute miles for the final ten miles to make it.  It took a lot of hard work and complete concentration to hold that pace as the effort I was putting into that pace was very difficult.  By mile 23 I realized that I had slipped even further off of pace and I would have to run under seven-minute miles for the last 5km to break 2:55; a pace I had not seen since mile 14.

The final two miles in Central Park were mostly a blur and my legs were tingling.  I didn't know if that meant they were ready to give out or not, but I pushed ahead, knowing that I did not have much room to spare.  Making the final turn near Columbus Circle I could begin to see signs in metric noting the distance remaining.  First 400 meters, then 200 meters, then 100 meters... I had nothing left at the end so there was never a final kick but I didn't need it.  I was able to keep it under 2:55 and reach my B goal and run 2:54:44.

I had held on to finish my seventeenth marathon, with the final six marathons raced at under three hours.  More importantly, I was able to realize a dream of completing the three major marathons in this country.  A dream set into motion more than five years earlier.


I feel tremendously blessed to have been given the gift to run, the motivation to train hard and the determination to keep trying after failure.  These medals have been a dream of mine for a half decade, but the glory of finally earning them all goes to God.

Friday, October 21, 2011

we are all the same

I hope I can find the right words to describe what I am thinking about.  If there is any question on my intent then I got the wording wrong and have failed.  I am just open and honest and like to share what I am thinking and appreciate your comments.  I hope I am not just rambling!

Recently someone said that I was an elite runner and that it was an honor to talk with me about running.  I have thought long and hard about what this means.  Just like I look up to faster runners as elite, this person probably does the same to me.  While none of us are going to the Olympics any time soon, I appreciated the kind words, but I also realize that it takes nothing more than going to a big time race to be humbled as to where we fit with our abilities.  I appreciate the fact that they look up to me and I will admit that selfishly it does feel good to be recognized for something, but should it be an honor to have me dispense some running advice?  No.

Please don't be afraid to talk to me at a race or any other time about running or life.  I put my shoes on just like you do.  I paid the same race entry fee as you do.  Regardless of finishing time, we both put forth the same effort during the race.  If you ran as hard as you could and you are proud of that effort, then I would love to hear about it.  I am always looking to talk to people before and after races; I love to hear the stories of where people are from, the adversity of their training and other stories that help bring as closer together as athletes.  Its no more of a privilege to talk with a faster runner than it would be to talk with someone who has a higher rank at work; we are all people at heart and when you take running away, we are the same.

I have been taught by some of the best guys in town and I would love nothing more than to be able to pass this on to the up and coming runners.  If I kept it all to myself then it was a waste for those who taught me.  I want to teach you so that you can teach others and pay it forward.  I'd love to have a beer with you sometime and talk about running or anything but running.  I love it when people ask me for help on training or something running related where I can leverage what I have learned to help them out.

Just because I may run fast doesn't mean that I am any different than you.  I respect the fact that you are out there doing it and trying your best.  I am not above running with or talking to anyone.  If anything; the opposite.  People think that because you are fast that all you do is run fast.  I love to run with friends of all paces and really I just enjoy the company of running with other people.  If I am training for a goal race I will find a time for my quality running.  Not many people enjoy running alone day after day and I am no different; sometimes I'd rather sacrifice a key workout just to not run alone.  After all, we are just human first and runners much further down the list.

Now I will be honest to say that after I warm up before a race, and lower the sunglasses, that is how I go to that mental state that I need to be in order to race my best.  Some athletes use heavy rock music on their ipod to take them there; for me lowering the sunglasses puts me into the zone.  So please don't take this as being elitest; its just what I need to be at the top of my game.  The second the race is over, I get more enjoyment from seeing people finish and with a joyful tone talk about how exciting  it was to race.  I was able to help you in your training, with coaching or to even just encourage you with my words or cheering during the race, then that is greater than any medal or reward I could receive for my own efforts.

If I have ever made you feel unimportant at a race, then I apologize.  I used to be a jerk.  I used to be a jerk with an ego thinking that I was hot stuff, when in the grand scheme of things, I was just a jerk.  If that is who you still think that I am, then you are welcome to your opinion, but I invite you to strike up a conversation with me now and let's start over.  I think you will be surprised.  I pray that someday I will be known for who I am, my beliefs and maybe how I impacted your life in a positive way, not because I ran a fast race once upon a time.

So if you are a 5 minute miler or a 9 minute miler; a 40 mile a week person or an 80 mile a week person; a 10 mile runner or a 100 mile runner; we are all the same, you and I.  We are runners.  We are athletes.  We all suffer the same during races, hurt after hard workouts, have occasional injuries and smile from ear to ear when we cross the finish line, knowing that we have given our best effort.  We all look up to people who are faster than us.  None of us are elite.

After all, we are the same, you and I.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

2011 Liz Hurley 5km

I have always loved this race and 2011 was no exception.  There is something about being motivated by the overall cause of supporting breast cancer awareness, the cool temperatures, the fast course, the competitive field and being able to cheer on the women in their separate race afterward.   This was the 4th year in a row that I have run this race, and maybe it is the time of year, but I have always faired well.  Starting with a 17:04 in 2008 (10th), 17:01 in 2009 (5th) and a personal best 16:36 last year (7th).  

I had thoughts leading into the race of trying to hold 5:20 pace and run faster than 2009, but with a recently ailing right knee, I just hoped to have a solid run without much pain.  This was also three weeks out from the New York marathon, so sandwiched around the race I needed to log 20 miles.  I met with Dr. Culpepper on Thursday and he said there was nothing structurally wrong with my knee but that he wasn't sure what the problem was, so he just prescribed some anti-inflammatories.  I'm hoping the knee responds positively to give me confidence in the marathon.  I appreciate the thoughts and prayers I have received; there are so many people that need those prayers more than me so it meant a lot to me that people would pray for my health to compete in a foot race.

The weather was great to start in the low 50's and after a few delays at the line, we were off.  The pack thinned out faster than in previous years and I was able to run the tangents through the s-curves of Lowe before the turn to Madison.  As we climbed up toward the square, I settled into a nice pace behind Brad Schroeder and I was running in 4th.  I knew there was a ton of talented guys just seconds behind me and at anytime I could easily slip out of the top ten if I slowed.  Brad opened up the gap coming off of the square and just before the first mile marker, good friend George Heeschen passed me as we clocked a 5:18.  George and I joked last night over beers that neither of us felt like racing!

I felt a little bit of the bear jump on my back in the second mile, which at 5km pace I have described as 'unforgiving' with the turns and slowly gradual hills.  It was nice to see Anne and her pups on the corner of Randolph and White as I was able to snap out of my zone and refocus.  If I were going to make a charge at sub 17, I would have to capitalize on the fast downhill of Randolph.  My second mile split was a slow 5:32, which put me at 10:50 overall.  George had pulled away and would go on to have a great race.

The two-turn combination of Lincoln and Williams is always taxing and I let up just enough that Nike Fleet Feet Racing Team mates Donald Bowman and Erik Debolt nearly pulled even.  We topped out on Adams and after a very fast recovery, picked up the cadence and dropped the pace.  We were running along at about 5-minute pace and Erik was right with me.  He was in great shape coming off of the Army 10 miler last weekend and I knew that he would out kick me if we stayed together until the final tenth of a mile.  I decided to push the pace early, instead of waiting, and dropped it down to around 4:50.  I put a little gap between us, but as we crossed Lowe and neared the end, he closed in. We were both running all out, pulling each other along.  Somehow I managed to hold on and together we ran 16:56 and 16:57.





(All photos courtesy of Carolyn Derting)

Later Erik and I joked that neither of us probably would have broken 17 alone but together we did it!  It wasn't 5:20 pace or a personal best, but on a day when I wasn't fully healthy and on that relentless rolling hill course, I am happy with the results and of my effort.  Breaking 17 might be easy for some people, but I really have to be in good shape and work very hard to get there.

I was happy to see that all of my friends ran so well today!  As always, I am very thankful that I was able to compete and am proud of my 5th place finish, but I hope in the process I was able to remember that the glory of this day is all His.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

A Year Later

I had just run past the aid station before mile 5 near Monte Sano Elementary of the Fleet Feet 15km.  I was pacing along at 5:45 min/miles when suddenly I just lost the will to run.  I calmly stopped and walked off the course and started to make my way back to the park.  I was going through some very difficult times in my personal life leading into the race and emotionally I had no business racing.  It was one of my worst days ever.

That was one year ago today.

Now a year later, what I thought was one of my worst days ever, turned out to be one of my best days ever.  It was the first day of the rest of my life and the last year has been more amazing than the previous thirty-four.  I am no longer the same person I was last year, having grown spiritually to where running no longer runs my life.  I still enjoy it, but it has its place and time further down the list where it should be.

So when I ran past the aid station this morning averaging the same 5:45 pace, I did not stop; I did not walk off the course.  I felt a little devine breeze which made me smile and I managed to stayed strong for the second half of the race.

On a challenging couse around Panorama, I was able to set a personal record of 54:59.87.  I am very proud of my effort not only with the time, but that I put to rest any thoughts of last year.  I didn't win the race today but I did have an amazing emotional victory.

I continue to feel blessed that I have been given this great opportunity to turn my life around.  I owe much to the people around me that have been there through the good and bad times.  I feel like I am on the right road, but far from complete.  God is not done with me yet and I trust in his plan.

While the personal record feels great I know that the glory of this day is all His.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Clarity on the Divide

For weeks leading into my westward journey, I paid little attention to the work for which I was traveling to perform. My thoughts were focused instead on the ascent from the valley floor up to the top of the ridgeline where the Continental Divide lies. This doesn’t mean that I was neglecting my work responsibilities; I had prepared diligently for the work meetings and would be ready to execute my presentation to the best of my ability. In the same breathe, I was so excited to return to Montana to climb up to the divide, as on my two previous trips to the state, both in June of 2010 at Glacier National Park and to Butte in April of this year, the snow made the trails impassable and I was unable to reach it.



While standing atop the divide in GNP would have nice, the real draw was in Butte, where at 8,500’, towering more than two-thirds of a mile above the city, was the Our Lady of the Rockies statue.  The statue was built by volunteers beginning on December 29, 1979 and culminated six years later.  The statue, which stands for all mothers is built in the likeness of Mary, Mother of Jesus.  At 90’ tall, it is the second largest statue in the United States and she can be seen easily during the day, but her real majesty can be seen at night when the statue is illuminated and her ghostly white appearance makes it seem as if she is floating in the sky.

The gravel road that leads to the statue starts along the interstate with a sternly locked gate at 6,380’. From there, the well-groomed road ascends quickly in the first 3 miles climbing to 7,800’. With no warm up for my legs, I was quickly fatigued from running the first mile and alternated running and walking briskly for the next two after that. From there the grade is not as steep, but still winds upward to a peak of 8,163’ at the five-mile mark. I ran continuously through this section as the road featured fewer switchbacks but instead more long stretches of steady climb. I stopped once for a brief check of the map to confirm that on the second fork that I was to stay to the left. After crossing over the divide and onto the west side with the absence of sun, the temperature dropped quickly. The road came through an unlocked gate, which is also where I hit the highest point on the run. I was a little concerned that I had taken the wrong fork as the gravel road dropped a few hundred feet but with the marvels of technology, I was able to consult my GPS to confirm I was still heading south, and my iPhone with aerial photography on Google maps confirmed the Lady was just around the bed; even from Satellite imagery, she could be seen from above.



After one more gate, I came around a bend and what stood in the distance before me was one of the most amazing sights I have ever taken in.  I ran down the last section of the road and toward the statue like a small child sprinting toward the presents under the tree on Christmas morning. I was surprised that there was no fence and I was able to run right up to the statue, pressing stop on my Garmin at the same time. As I walked around to the eastern face, I was in utter disbelief at the shear size of the statue. Being just after 6pm, there was not a person in sight and I had the place to myself.



After catching my breath, I dropped my gear on the ground at her feet. I had packed far too much for this short run, but I did not want to be unprepared should the weather turn quickly and be caught in the elements. I then sat down on a large rock and was deep in thought and prayer for some time. Being there, I was in total and utter awe; not of the statue, the run, the mountains, or anything man made – but of the greatness of our God. The journey began as a physical test, but had turned into a spiritual experience in which I found great clarity of mind. I was able to focus on the things that are important to me, including my faith and loved ones as well as to make sense of some things that have troubled me lately.  It was very peaceful and just what I needed when I needed it.  Being blessed with the ability and passion to climb brought me up there, but using the opportunity to make the most of it was His reward to me.

Having gotten a late start, I stayed for as long as I could before it was time to leave. I took a few pictures, which included the view down into the city and of the surrounding natural features. These images will help remind me one day of this trip and I am happy to share those, but the memories of the experience beyond what I have mentioned are mine alone, which is why the story ends here.





I wasn’t out to seek any speed records on this run, for it was about much more than that, yet I was pleased with my time of 59:04. This was 10:12 pace for the 5.78-mile climb, which from just after the start, was at a higher altitude than I had ever run before. The return trip to the rental car took just 48 minutes and I was rewarded with the most amazing sunset on the way down.





There are not many reasons to visit Butte Montana; this once booming town full of wealth and people, is now but a small quant former mining town in a shadow of its former self. But if you are ever passing through, I would recommend that you find your way to that locked gate and the gravel road. With my travels, I have seen quite a few natural and man-made wonders, but I’d be hard pressed to think of another right now that compares to what I felt when I was on top of the divide and maybe none other that were able to take my breathe away.

I wish that I could describe it better, but I think that it is just something that you have to experience for yourself.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Bankhead Challenge

I thought that it was possible, but not for me.  Maybe that is why after failing four times, I tried it a fifth time; and failed again.

The concept came to me one day while running on the roads in Monte Sano State Park and seemed quite simple.  Was it possible to run gate to gate in under 15 minutes?  1.23 miles out and 1.23 miles back.  2.46 miles in under 15 minutes works out to be 6:05 pace which at face value sounds possible. Then add in the fact that the "top" gate sits at 1,570' and the "bottom" gate sits at 1,335' and they are connected by a closed section of Bankhead Parkway that used to be an entrance into the state park.  So now the 2.46 miles contains 235' of drop (3.6%) and 235' of climb for 470' of elevation change.

Was this possible?  The math says yes.  Run down at 5:05 pace and back up at 7:05 pace, or the many combinations of speed that produce a sub 15 minute time.  Was this possible for me?  I really doubted it, and after failing five times, I didn't think it would ever happen.  I wasn't just failing, but I was failing miserably... I varied the technique of trying to run 4:50 race down, which resulted in having to rest at the bottom before jogging slowly back up.  I tried running down slower, but I was unable to come up at any faster than 6:40 pace.

With cooler temperatures tonight, and a gang of pals along who were running the 10 mile Panorama Loop, I decided that it was time for try for a sixth time.  While the weather was cooperating, my legs were trashed.  I was coming off of a double race on Saturday (10km/5km back to back), 8x600m downhill repeats at 4:50 pace on Tuesday and then a 17:05 fun run 5km on Wednesday night.  Not even compression socks could help ease the fatigue.  Yet I was bound and determined to try it again...

We warmed up fairly quickly, clocking miles of 7:03, 6:28, 6:09, 6:14 and 3:10 for 4.5 miles (6:27 pace), which wasn't exactly what you want before a speed attempt, but when we hit the top gate, I hit lap on my watch, leapt the "rock" in stride and was on my way.

I decided to run easier down and try to run harder coming back up.  It was one of the many variations that I had not tinkered with on my previous failures.  I was still cruising, focusing on a fast turnover and maintaining my form, but I was not all out.  I have never been a good downhill runner, which was one of the many reasons why I was so intrigued by this challenge as it would test the ability to run fast downhill and immediately turn around and hammer it coming back up.  I touched the bottom gate and hit lap on my watch in 6:30, which averaged out to be 5:17 pace.  I was breathing hard, but I was not gassed like I had been on previous attempts.

I had 8 minutes and 30 seconds to get back to the top, which was 6:55 pace.  After the first 400 meters after the turn, self doubt started to creep in as I was struggling to find a regular breathing pattern and was working very hard.  I put my head down and kept my arms swinging forward, helping to propel my knees up.  I take pride in my ability to climb as it required a lot of work, which I enjoy.  While it was not an eternity of time to fall into deep thought, I had visions of my many previous failures but by half way, I was starting to believe.  The more I believed, the faster I ran.  The faster I ran, the more I believed.  As I hit the 200 meter mark (to go) I found another gear and picked up the pace.  I finally touched the top gate and hit stop on my watch.  Looking down it read 7:58 (for the 1.23 mile lap) which worked out to 6:29 pace.

It took a second for the math to sink in, but then I realized that 6:30 + 7:58 was 14:28.  After failing five times, I refused to give up, kept training, and on my sixth attempt I crushed it.

Does this mean anything to anyone else?  Not whatsoever.  It was an arbitrary distance and an arbitrary time.  Does it mean something to me?  Yes, indeed.  Not just because I didn't think that it was possible, and not just because I had failed so many times before time, but because I believed that it COULD happen.  Christ has given me the ability to run, like he has to so many others, but he has also given me the patience and dedication (in so many walks of life) to work hard and trust in Him that it WOULD happen.  Goals are great ways to check your fitness and see the fruits of your labor.

Thanks to Brett Wilks who encouraged who probably believed that I could do it before I did and when it was over, was just as happy as I was.

Monday, August 29, 2011

2011 Rocketman Triathlon Relay

August 28th, 2011

When I am not sure where to start, I always find that the beginning is the best place.

Shortly before the first athletes hit the water to kick off the 18th annual Rocketman Triathlon, Chris Welch, Tom Gale and Kenny Sexton from FCA Endurance brought a few folks together on the shores of the Tennessee River for a Sunday morning service. The way that these guys have emphasized their faith and been able to take the focus off of themselves in a predominately individual sport has been very inspiring and I wanted to hear their words before competing on this beautiful morning.

Tom had a few words prepared that really stuck with me throughout the race, over the course of the day and into the evening. He titled it, ‘More than a PR.’ Here are some points that he talked about (in italics), what they meant to me and how I was able to apply them.

God has something BIG for you today. “What is it?” The thrill of a PR--that accomplishment you’ve been shooting for-- is a wonderful feeling. But how long does that feeling last? And in the long run, what’s the real significance of that accomplishment? The greater impact you can have today—the longer lasting impact—is not that coveted PR.

Going into the race, I had been training very hard, though not for this particular event. The goal race was later this fall, but today I was competing as part of a relay team and on race day, I still wanted to give it everything I had. While driving to the race, I was focusing on 1 Corinthians 9:27I strike a blow to my body, make it my slave so after I have preached to others I will not be disqualified for the prize. Yes our relay team was assembled not just to win, but to defeat all competitors, both individual and team. But for me individually, I was racing to sacrifice my body up to the Lord, as to give him thanks and praise for the gifts that he has bestowed upon me. He has given me the fleet of foot and the determination to pound myself into the ground through training such that I can excel on race day. But He has given those gifts to many people; sadly so few do anything with them and even less do anything to honor Him for them. It really only has been of late that I am in that small number of people, taking to heart the words of Leo Buscaglia - Your talent is God's gift to you. What you do with it is your gift back to God. So really I did not know what God had in store for me on this day, but I was racing with a purpose and eager to see how we would surprise me.

Your real impact today may look more like this:
- Worship God throughout the race
- Look for opportunities to encourage others
- Rely on Christ and only Him
- Put the credit where it belongs—on God!
- Forgive someone
- Share the Gospel of Christ

When I was finally able to take the timing chip from Dave, I was off on the run, racing through the crowds with the individual leader already out of sight. I was so excited to run after having been up for 5 hours that I rushed out to a 2:30 first 800m; not a good sign in a 10km race. I was able to dial it back and relax very quickly though, remembering the race plan that I had put together. Though I was not thinking about strengthening my faith on this morning through works, Tom’s words were ringing in my ears in the early miles. Before turning onto the trail section, I found myself thinking about Corinthians again as my leg turn over rolled along smoothly. Yes I was out to run as fast as I possibly could without crashing, but first and foremost I was focusing remembering that my body was a temple with the Holy Spirit within it and my purpose was to honor God with my body (1 Cor 6:19-20). Before I realized much of anything, I had chased the leader down and before turning out of the woods and back onto the gravel road, I was leading the way.

I will openly admit that this race was very painful. The rolling hills, the gravel roads, the uneven footing and soaring temperatures must have been tough on the individual competitors as it was taking its toll on me. I pushed on as hard as I could and kept my effort very even, despite the varying pace with the changing conditions. I tried my best to thank all of the volunteers at each aid station and the course marshals guiding me to make the correct turns, but I am sure that I missed some. My body was responding to every request I made of it, but it was taking a lot of focus at that level of intensity and at times I couldn’t get out any words!

I was very thankful to finally be back on the pavement for the out and back section as I didn’t have to think about my footing as much and could just stay on my tangents. Making the turn around the cone was a tremendous emotional lift as I knew that I was in the home stretch and would finally start to see other runners. In the past my first reaction would be to see where the competition was so I could judge how much effort I needed to put forth to stay in the lead. But on this day, I was not competing against the individuals, but really against myself. This allowed me to run my race, and as I passed by the other runners I was able to give them words of encouragement. It was rewarding and uplifting to cheer on these athletes who in their own way were sacrificing their bodies and had been doing it through all facets of the event. I even felt slightly guilty running so fast, knowing that I had not swam nearly a mile, nor had I biked 40km. I tried to turn this feeling around and even though I was running hard and nearly out of breathe myself, I was able to get some words out to each runner I saw. To my surprise, I was actually able to run faster as a result! I believe that this was His way of rewarding me for trying to do his good will and I was thankful for it.

Coming over the final hill I knew that it was just a sprint to the finish. I really had to fight through the pain and fatigue if I was going to break 36 minutes. I had been dealing with the fatigue for awhile and was starting to doubt my ability to even finish, with less than a half mile to go! It is remarkable how your mind can play tricks on you in trying times. Instead of focusing on the pain, which would only increase as my pace quickened, I simply let go… for a brief moment I closed my eyes and prayed for the strength to finish strong. I used to believe that I controlled everything in my life, including running. When I finally accepted Jesus Christ as my savior, I realized that I didn’t control any of it; it was all in His hands. As He has written in Phillippians 4:13, I can do all things through Him who strengthens me, I was able to run close to 5 minute pace for the final half mile with confidence that He would lead me home.

In the few races that I have won, you will probably recognize the same thing from me as I approach the finish; A single finger pointing upward and a glance in that direction to give him thanks and place the credit where it belongs; not on me but with Him. In those final moments where I am running all out, I am thinking not of the glory of winning a race, but of Matthew 5:16 - Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven. The race is a way of sacrificing my body to show that I am thankful for the gifts that I have been given, but my simple gesture to the sky is my way of letting my light shine before all to see, as to glorify the Father.


Photo by Ed Blalack

After catching my breath and greeting my team mates, my first thought was to change my shoes and get back out on the course to cheer on the other people still running. While at one point in my life I will admit that I did this out of selfish glorification, now it is purely selfless in wanting to encourage others to push through the pain and fatigue toward their finish line. I have said before and I reiterate, for as much joy as I get out of the race, the joy is tenfold when I get back out of the course for others. When I went back out, I thought of Tom’s words of taking the emphasis off of myself and looking for the opportunity to praise God and do his good will; on this day that was in the form the miles I ran AFTER the race was over. So while my relationship with God is in my heart and strengthened by what I believe, today was more about physical acts of work in sharing Christ with others.

So what was the ‘big thing’ that Tom referred to in the sunrise service that God had in store for me on this day? Was it the fastest run time? Was it the relay team overall win? Was it standing on the top of the podium during awards? All of those things were nice, but they can’t compare to bringing glory and honor to the Creator through my actions. Was everything I did Christian on this day? Sadly, no. But that is why we continue to work on our faults and through prayer and devotion; we can only hope become better Christians.

Tom finished the sunrise service with Romans 15: 5-6 May the God who gives ENDURANCE and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.

A huge thanks to my team mates Andrew Hodges and Dave Varoujean who dominated their events as well and put us in position to finish in 1:58:19.  Also to the race director Mike Gerrity for putting on a great race. 


Photo by Ed Blalack

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Why do I wear LIVESTRONG?

Why do I wear a LIVESTRONG bracelet on my right wrist? As a reminder to remember.

For the last 2500 days (6 years, 10 months) I have worn a yellow silicone gel bracelet on my right wrist. While the reason I first put it on and the reasons I continue to wear it have changed, what has not changed is the fact that it has never been taken off; not once. That is an amazing piece of endurance silicone! Let’s take a look at what it has meant to me over the years.

The earliest documented proof that I can find in photos of having it on my wrist was at the Fox Cities 5km in Menasha, WI on September 26, 2004. Just a month prior at the Cheese Head and Disco 5km in Hilbert Wisconsin it doesn’t show in the pictures, so I will declare 9/26 as day 1.


The bracelet was part of the "Wear Yellow Live Strong" educational program intended to raise money for cancer research, raise cancer awareness, and encourage people to live life to the fullest. Selling for $1 each, the initial plan was to raise $25.1 million for the Lance Armstrong Foundation. The goal was reached within 6 months, and there have now been 80 million LIVESTRONG bracelets sold to date. The band became a popular fashion item in the United States by the end of the summer of 2004. Lance and his popularity were peaking as he was in the middle of his 7 victories at the Tour de France and whether you like him or not, he took that fame and turned it into some beneficial with the foundation. Everyone was wearing yellow and I will admit that the first time I put it on was just to be cool.

After the popularity of the bracelet had faded, I was tempted to take it off. They were still being worn by some athletes and people who had gone through personal loss as a result of cancer; neither of which I thought applied to me (as I had not taken my first step as a runner.) Or had it? Back in 2001 I was living in Neenah, Wisconsin and life was going along pretty well. Meanwhile, a hundred miles away in my hometown of Kingsford, Michigan, my Uncle Donald Charette was diagnosed with cancer. Though I always called him my uncle, he was actually my cousin, as he was my dad’s older brother’s son. He had kids older that were older than me and was nearly my dad’s age so I always called him Uncle Donald. While we didn’t have a day to day relationship, every fall when the leaves would change colors, the entire Charette clan would be at our hunting camps and spend most weekends together. I have many fond memories of him throughout the many cold Novembers in Upper Michigan. That summer he had been in the middle of remodeling his camp and while the weather seemed hotter than normal, he had been losing weight. He didn’t think much of it, but it turned out to be a side effect of the cancer that had taken over his body, which would quickly take his life. His funeral was more somber than others I had been to as everyone liked my Uncle Donald and was sadden how his life was taken so abruptly. It was at that time, that I dedicated my LIVESTRONG bracelet to his memory. Anytime I would look at my right wrist it would be what I needed to remember his contagious smile and think about his memory. While this probably should have been the reason why I put it on in the first place, at least it now had personal meaning to me.

Fast forward to the early summer months of 2009. Lance had retired from cycling and I had gone on to run 17 marathons and ultramarathons, all wearing LIVESTRONG. The most memorable of which was my first Boston marathon in which I was able to finish with my parents in the crowd. The memory of my uncle Donald had somewhat faded and the yellow band on my wrist wasn’t really reminding me of anything. I was so engulfed in my own quest for running greatness that I had turned off the rest of the world. Then unexpectedly I was reminded of the harshness of our world when my childhood friend Scott Giuliani lost his long battle with cancer. Growing up in Kingsford, Scott was becoming a great multi-sport athlete and I was just an uncoordinated geek who tagged along, but Scott was one of the good guys who stood by me. Though our paths diverged later in life, I always admired him and his strength right up until and through his passing.

Then just days later in an ironic twist of life, my Dad’s best friend Dave Lavarnway had a heart attack and died. Dave had a unique perspective on life but was very honest and would always say it like it was and he commanded my respect. Without a second thought, I drove the 900 miles back home so that I could see Scott’s parents and tell them what Scott had meant to me and then to attend Dave’s funeral in support for my dad. It was a very difficult few days but their deaths again brought new meaning to the LIVESTRONG bracelet. After that week, anytime that I looked down or saw it show up in pictures, I was reminded of the unfairness of life and that we should take every opportunity we have to live it to its fullest as you never know if today might be your last day. I am sure that the loved ones Scott and Dave left behind would give anything to have just one more day to spend with them.

Then just as it had before, the memory of these two faded and I was no longer reminded daily of the impact they had on my life. I was back to my selfish ways but to a much more destructive level that eventually lead to my divorce in 2010. Running and other self-centered activities had become my false idols and I was spiraling out of control. As I have written recently (Turning my Life around on the Trap Hills Traverse and Receiving God’s Grace) I was able to turn my life around this year. Through the caring support of my family, friends and loved ones, I have been born anew. It has been an eye opening experience and my faith continues to grow every day. Whereas the days when I was putting myself above all else are gone, I realize that they are not that far behind me. I am not perfect and despite having changed my life, I still struggle everyday with the addictions and behaviors that had broken me down. I must remember everyday what my purpose in this world is, for even the most devote Christians are tempted by sin. So just as it was before, then again in, I have a daily reminder that I need to work hard to be a better man and that comes in the form of a yellow silicone gel bracelet around my right wrist.

I don’t feel guilty that sometimes it takes life’s major turning points to make us realize that we have gotten off track and we need to realign our priorities. We all get wrapped up in the details of life and while it is not always as severe as the passing of a loved one, frequent reminders of our faith are a good thing. The hope is that the closer you get to walking in God’s footsteps that you need less and less reminders, but I know that I am full of sin. I am thankful for every blessing I have received and while I don’t deserve God’s grace, I now have a reminder with me every day to remember the reasons why I keep asking for it.

Why do I wear a LIVESTRONG bracelet on my right wrist? As a reminder to remember.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Receiving God's Grace



Ephesians 2:5-8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God

What does it feel like to be touched by God and receive his Grace?

This is an epilogue to a recent story of how I was able to figure things out while running the 28.2 mile Trap Hills Traverse, which can be found here.



A few weeks ago I met with the priest of my local church back home. As we wrapped up our talk, he stood up, placed his hand on my head and told me that for one solid calendar year he would pray one decade of his daily rosary for me. While I understand that no man should come between you and the God (1 Timothy 2:5 For there is one God and one mediator between God and mankind, the man Christ Jesus) to have a friend in Christ to love me that much, the love of God is so much greater and I am at his mercy.  During our talk, he used this analogy to which I have expanded upon below.

Imagine you are trying to assemble a thousand piece puzzle by yourself and you work on it every day. The puzzle is a picture of the sky, so while all of the pieces are different, they are all the same color blue. You are really good at placing the pieces on table inside the framed edges but you are trying to force pieces where they don't belong. Every once in a while you find the right one and while that is gratifying, despair ensues as you realize that the puzzle is far from complete. There is a picture on the box and even instructions inside but you are too stubborn to look at them and you never ask for any help. This goes on for 10 years and ultimately you give up.

This is where my life has been. I was searching for my purpose and thought that I could do it on my own. I gained confidence through running and through an addictive personality, I found that the more I ran, the faster I became, which made me want to do it more. It was a vicious cycle. I would run races weekly trying to find what was missing in my life. I would capture an occasional win, but that would be followed by the depression that I had to start training all over again to get back to that false high. I was spiraling out of control and I was too stubborn to ask for help.

Now image if you had looked at the box and read the instructions. The first thing you read is that you have to admit that you can not put together the puzzle alone; but you have to ask for help. Realizing this, the pieces start to almost place themselves.

Finally I was able to open my eyes and see what I was missing. I realized I was living selfishly, never putting anyone before me and trying to put together the puzzle on my own. For the first time in my life, I was able to put someone else before me and it felt amazing. Yet I was still obsessed with the puzzle.   I also realized that I was chasing temporary glory for myself with winning medals and the real reason for competition was noted in 1 Corinthians 9:25 Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever.

Now imagine that you are feverishly solving the puzzle and you see that there are only 5 empty pieces in the middle of the puzzle that remain. With great excitement, you reach into the box and realize that there are no more pieces left. The remaining instructions are missing and you don't know what to do.

I was able to learn so much about myself and how to be a better person but I was unable to solve the puzzle because I ran out of pieces. It was only by admitting that I was not in control of my life and placing my path in the hands of God was I able to find the rest of the instructions. The puzzle pieces weren’t missing after all, I just wasn’t ready to see them and there was a reason why they all were joined together in the center of the puzzle. I was being tested to see if my heart was ready to finish the puzzle. He showed me that the missing pieces where my friends, my family, my loved ones and the last two were me and God.



One of the most amazing things that I have noticed since receiving God's Grace has been the clarity in my life. I see a purpose and I understand what the priorities of my life should be. As read in Micah 6:8, He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. Understanding this can help put all else into perspective. I realize that God should be loved above all else. Only then can your heart be prepared to love another. To accomplish this I need to continue to learn more about my faith through reading the bible and going to church via 2 Peter 3:18 But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen. and following more closely in his footsteps.

Among the many things that have become clear, include balance.  Working on balance in my life is important and to constantly remember not to invest all of my energy into a single task.

Faith has helped me to recognize that I need to focus on being a better listener/communicator and I have been working hard on this everyday.

I am relaxing more and enjoying life, not living it by a schedule. I have been talking openly about my feelings and thoughts with loved ones even if it about uncomfortable things. This is something I would never have done before but with this clarity it is so much easier.

I also want to get back to reading and writing short stories more as I find much pleasure in this.

I am also venturing out of my shell and trying things that I never would have in the past and making them part of my life; no more will I be bound by my past and what I was comfortable with, but will expand it out to experience the joys of the rest of the world.

I have also found that while I have always been considerate and thoughtful, I feel a deeper sense of caring for all people and things. Grace has empowered me to see things in a different light and appreciate them so much more. No longer do I appreciate the simple beauty of the tree but recognize the beauty of the entire forest for which it lies.

My running will not suffer, but I suspect that it will improve greatly as I now run to honor and serve the Lord and have new purpose.  1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.  With difficult decisions ahead on the role that this sport will have in my life, I fear not.  Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.  It is with this strength that I know I will make the right choices guided by His direction.

I want to strive toward becoming someone you are proud to know; for who I am, not how fast I am or how far I can run.  I admire my dad dearly and his is known to be a great man, a man for which you are a better person for having known.  There is much work ahead but I can best honor him and our Heavenly Father by trying to be the best man that I can.  I will show those close to me how much they truly mean and to continue to express my love for that special someone in a way that is more than they have ever known, as in John 15:13 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends.

I am learning to appreciate the gifts that I have been blessed with and and trying to figure out a way to use these gifts to help others in need, even it is just to inspire them that change is possible. While I am not as fast as Olympic marathoner Ryan Hall or is my faith as mature, I think that we share something in common. He has been able to use his gifts to inspire others to follow in the footsteps of the Lord. I am reminded of Matthew 5:16, Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven. If you haven’t watched Ryan’s Passion for the run video, it is worth checking out using this link.  My life has not had incredible hardships, but I have many experiences and gifts that I want to share with others and hopefully better their lives.

Ultimately, believe in yourself, as God believes in you. Jeremiah 29:11 reads - For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. I know not what that path holds, but I know that it will be greater than anything I have ever known.

So what does it feel like to be touched by God and receive his Grace?  Though we don't deserve it, God has shown me His grace by providing strength and guidance and the ability to change my life and it feels like nothing I have ever felt.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Trap Hills Traverse

When I first talked with Don Kermeen of Superior Shores Resort, who was listed on the Peter Wolfe Chapter of the North Country Trail as proving shuttle rides for thru-hikers and informed him that I was going to run the Trap Hills Traverse and wanted to be picked up later that day, he was confused.  His specific words were, "You want to do what?"  Eric Hansen's Hiking Michigan's Upper Peninsula guidebook, recommended this as a two or three day hike with a rating of "difficult". Now I know why no one had completed the section (to the best of my knowledge) without stopping to camp for the night.



The Trap Hills Traverse is a 28.3 mile section of the North Country Trail in the western part of Michigan's Upper Peninsula from the Gogebic Ridge Trail to Victoria Dam Road.  When I came across the trail in a  Backpacker Magazine article from 2002 I thought that it might be a great opportunity to spend some time in solitude to think about life and what better way to do it than under the skies of God's creation.


I left home just after 4am central and with the two hour drive, an hour time zone change and getting my gear ready, I started at 7:28 am eastern at the very obscure Gogebic Ridge Trail head on old M-64, which after a short bit connected to the NCT.  I had my new inov-8 Race Pac 32 to carry my food and water for the day.

Seven hours, 55 minutes and 13 seconds later, I stopped my watch on Old Victoria road, which was about an hour slower than I thought I would be.  While this is probably the fastest known time for the Traverse, that is not what I was out to do. I was not seeking personal glory or recognition.  My motivation was the continual pursuit of understanding my purpose and pondering God's gift's to me.  Though I will admit there is a sense of accomplishment, it is different than anything I have felt before.  I was not running for me, I was running for God.  As Leo Buscaglia noted, "Your talent is God's gift to you. What you do with it is your gift back to God."  I was able to experience many highs and lows while taking in some of the most amazing vistas this area has to offer.

I grossly under estimated several things about the Traverse and the day in general.  The first was the weather; it was supposed to be overcast and 50% chance of rain.  While nary a drop fell all day, the temperature soared into the upper 80's and my water supplies ran low early, which I recognized, and started to fill up and purify where needed at every stream crossing, which were ample.

The terrain seemed to ascend or descend for more than half of the run.  After looking at the profile,  now I see why this run was so tough!  While the trail was plotted along the top of the ridge, it would drop so sharply on rocky slopes, making running down impossible.  On the climb back up it was much of the same, without a single switchback all day.  Then when peaking again to a flat rock bald, the sun would rear it's force and slow me further.  On second thought I should taken my trekking poles!



Though I had many maps in my pack, and the trail was often marked with plastic blue diamonds or blue paint, there were so many blow downs that most of the time you could not see the next marker and it was a guessing game.  Several times I would come to a cleared section and have to try several different routes before figuring out the real path, doubling back to the last known trail marker each time.  Between the trees blocking the route, the overgrowth of the season and the lack of foot traffic, the trail was hard to follow in certain sections but mostly the single track in the flats was good trail.

I thought that when I hit Norwhich Road in 3 hours and 34 minutes, coming off of a few miles of easy running trail and having completed 15 miles that there was a chance I could finish in under 7 hours.  After a brutal climb right back up to the crest of the bluff, I realized that the trail was much more difficult on this half.  I started to fatigue around noon at the five hour mark and begin to fast-hike with virtually no running from about mile 23 to the finish.  The final 13+ miles took 4 hours and 21 minutes.

While I was lost many times and thought about how I might miss my pick up time and be stranded, I was never afraid.  I prayed long and hard on this day that somehow I would have the strength to finish and that everything would work out.  When I got to Victoria Road almost 30 minutes late, I found that I had good cell phone coverage, which is practically unheard of in this area, and was able to call Don.  He was supposed to be waiting for me and I thought he may have left already.  It turns out that he had forgotten, but quickly made his way down to pick me up.  I think that this was the answer to my prayer!  I managed to listen to all of the books in Genesis on my iPod as a change of pace over music.  It was very enjoyable!

While there were many difficulties encountered on this day, I do not look at them as negative.  When talking with Don on the ride back, he said, "I can tell that you are a glass half full kind of person."  That really struck me as I had always been a technical and realistic thinker but have been trying to be more open minded and optimistic.  I have turned the corner on many things that I am trying to accomplish in my life and while the learning process is continual, it was made evident by Don's comments that he could sense I was making good progress.

All in all it was a great day.



This was the start of the trail.  I couldn't see the trail either!



Now can you see why it was easy to lose the trail?  It is right here:)


The guidebook said to look for this ridge because in 20 miles, I would be standing on it!



Thank God that the trail traverse this and did not climb it!

Atop Lookout Mountain down over Victoria Dam.  Almost there!



Can a leopard change his spots?  I believe so.

I have realized many things lately in my life that were in dire need of change.  The way I was living was not working for me and it was affecting those around me.  I have been headed down a destructive path for many years and while I started to change late last year, I was so far off of where I need to be.  I can not continue with living life the way of the past where I put myself before all others.  While I have been able to put someone else before me, I really needed to be putting God before all else.  While I have been able to focus on Him, I have been able to focus less on myself.  It is a continual process and while I am not finished yet, I am working harder than ever to be a better man, a better friend and a better person.  While afoot for nearly eight hours I was able to think clearly on my life and here are those honest thoughts.

For years now I have been trying to fill a void in my life and I have done that through running.  I was chasing and chasing something, never knowing what I was looking for or missing.  I would get a temporary high with each race but then would feel more empty after than I did before.  It was only through attending church that I realized that running had become my false idol and the void in my life was faith.  This does not mean that I am going to stop running races; that would be sacrificing the gifts that I have been given.  But now I realize that God does not care how fast or how far I can run.  I want to run to enjoy running, to return the gift to God and to stay healthy but my outlook is totally different.  I also realized that I do not truly enjoy ultra running.  I have spent too much time trying to be someone else (because of the people around me enjoy it) and not enough time being me.  I love to trail run and be outside and will have to think long and hard about wanting to run ultras in the future.  Why would you keep doing something, even if you are good at it, if you don't truly enjoy it?  Running is one of the many things that I now do, but it will no longer be who I am.

I have an extremely addictive behavior so it is easy to slip into a personal vice.  I live every day with it like a disease, but I will not let it get the best of me.  I have been shown that there is so much more to life than running and for a decade I have been missing out.  While running across the Traverse yesterday, God was testing me in so many ways, once of which was to see if I would stop and enjoy the scenery or if I would just push through as fast as possible.  At every chance, I stopped to take it all in, smell the roses so to speak, and take a few photos to remember the beauty of the Ottawa National Forest.  I continue to work on this, but want to break out into an uncomfortable place and experience things that I would never have before.  This will also help bring the balance into my life that I so desperately need.

I have come to realize that being able to relax and let go is a good thing, understanding that rest is good for even on the 7th day God rested.  While it is ok to write things down as to not forget them, I don't have to live my life by the schedule or a checklist.  Thinking like an engineer is ok when at work, but I have to say that being stripped of this burden and living more relaxed has been very enjoyable.  I have been practicing just enjoying life, not feeling like I always have to be doing something.  

Today, when I spoke to the Father (at the church I attended growing up) after church, I told him that there were many reasons why I wanted to change.  He said that it was a reward as a priest to see when someone has been touched by God.  It does not matter how I got to this point and while I thought I was seeking Him out, it turns out that He was seeking me, but I had to be ready to accept him.  It was a very emotional meeting but he listed to me and provided very good insight when I told him that I wanted to live a more Christian life.  I want to do this for me.  He told me that I am a work in progress with room for improvement, but the important part is that I have asked for help, from him, from God and from others around me.  This is one of the many ways that I know I am ready to change, is that in the past I would never have asked for help.  I was either too afraid, too embarrassed or not ready to act.  I have found peace in him, feeling his presence in me and while unworthy, I am ready to ask for grace and incorporate Him into my life through prayer, church, the Bible and other ways. 

These are not just words, nor are they not temporary changes.  I hope others close to me can accept and respect these changes.  Like the way a muscle must be stressed and torn during exercise to properly recover, repair and grow stronger, I too have been broken down and am opening myself up.  I've been lost for many years but now have asked for forgiveness.  At the suggestion of a friend, I have started a journal so that I can write down more personal thoughts and feelings.  I am thankful for those around me who have helped me realize what I was missing.

God has a purpose for me.  While I was lost and feeling alone, he was always there for me even though I could not see him.  God has not given up on me.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Trap Hills Traverse


On Saturday, July 16th I will be thru-hiking the Trap Hills Traverse, a 28.3 mile section of the North Country Trail in the western part of Michigan's Upper Peninsula from the Gogebic Ridge Trail to Victoria Dam Road.  This was not planned or even thought of until this morning when I came across it in a Backpacker Magazine article from 2002.  I was immediately intrigued and after thinking and praying about it,  I was inspired to commit.  I am not seeking personal glory or gratification.  My motivation is the continual pursuit of understanding my purpose and pondering God's gift's to me.  I find peace under the skies of His amazing creation and hope to further explore my faith thinking about Ephesians 2:8 and a quote by Leo Buscaglia while afoot.


Ephesians 2:8 - For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God


Leo Buscaglia - Your talent is God's gift to you. What you do with it is your gift back to God.

Though undeserving, I know that God will show His grace to me tomorrow by giving me strength and guidance, and by taking care of me on the journey.  It would be a bonus if He got me there in time to meet my ride back to the start:)




Michigan' Trap Hills
(Content courtesy of http://www.northcountrytrail.org/pwf/traphills.htm)


As for the geologic history, the story begins about 1.1 billion years ago, as a great rift opened in the area now home to the Lake Superior basin. Molten lava flowed from the rift and across the landscape, and streams from surrounding highlands carried sediments into the rift basin. When the lava cooled and the sediments of sand and cobbles were cemented into rock, they formed layers of basalt, sandstone, and conglomerate, respectively. That the Trap Hills are here today is due largely to the hard, erosion-resistant nature of the basalt and conglomerate, which cap most of the ridges, and are also well-exposed where the ridges are cut by streams to form falls and gorges.  Another name for a basaltic lava flow is Trap Rock, or Trap; hence the name Trap Hills.

Between many of the rock ridges of the Trap Hills are found valleys of varying width, basically oriented north-south or northwest-southeast, and home to such streams as Bush and Whisky Hollow Creeks. Rock exposures are rare in these valleys, but perhaps numerous faults and fractures are present in the rocks there, causing those rocks to be susceptible weathering and to erosion by streams. Continental glaciers moving from north to south probably helped scour and smooth out these valleys as well. Other faults are likely responsible for the valleys of the smaller streams, like Gleason Creek, which flow southward off the bluffs.

History of the Trap Hills


Earliest human use of the Trap Hills began in prehistoric time, as native peoples occasionally used the area for hunting and extracted small quantities of copper from veins in the rock. This same copper attracted Europeans, who began exploring the hills toward the end of the first half of the 19th Century They were encouraged by Michigan State Geologist Douglass Houghton's reports of the copper deposits in the western U.P., and by the moving of the famous Ontonagon Boulder, a two-ton mass of copper, from its original location in the West Branch of the Ontonagon River near Victoria to Detroit. Both events took place in 1841, and by 1850 over a dozen mines and hundreds (or more) of exploration pits could be found in the Trap Hills. Most famous and successful of the mines were the Norwich Mine, north of the bridge over the West Branch on Norwich Road, and the Forest Mine at Victoria. Towns supporting these mines prospered in accordance with the success of the mine at the time; that success varied depending on the price of copper, the cost per ton to mine the copper, transportation issues, competition, and depletion of ore bodies.  By early in the 20th century, all mining had ceased, and the mines and their supporting communities began to be reclaimed by nature.